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A Story of Triumph
- Morgan Banks
- Sep 7, 2020
- 5 min read
My name is Brittany Barfield, I was born in Baltimore, Md, and raised in Maryland. I'm the mom of an angel in heaven. I have lots of talents that I don’t take enough credit for. I love photography, I enjoy taking photos of others. I also love writing and communicating. I loved being behind the camera. I recently learned how much I enjoy graphic design. I lost my voice I still love to sing though, around my house. I don’t care how good I sound lol. Growing up I loved dancing and lately, I've been getting back into the groove of dancing, at least trying lol. I'm a very optimistic individual.
My faith and connection with God have been carrying me for years. I make it my business to speak of the blessings God has provided. I also feel it’s important to share how God has been there for me during my most difficult times. I’m not "religious" I believe my connection with God is the most important relationship in my life. I've been blessed with an amazing man, I like to call my soulmate. I believe God himself brought my fiance and me together. My Life in three words has been, UNPREDICTABLE it’s constantly changing. In the past year, I've been from Maryland to Las Vegas, Pregnant, Homeless to having my own home. Every day I'm surprised how it turns out. Even when I plan God laughs, so I learned to go with the flow and trust God. BLESSED - whew, If you only knew my full life story... (that’s for another time) But no honestly, I'm super blessed to wake up each morning. I've had more than one "death scare" and I’m still here with God’s protection. Every day I’m super blessed and protected. Lastly, ORDAINED BY GOD - the more I try to "control" my life again, GOD laughs.. he has my life ordained.
I'm proud to pick up all of my talents this year. I took many leaps of faiths in the last two years. I feel like I've gotten to know myself a little better. I'm so proud to say I've started my business this year! Also, proud that I came out of my shell lately. I used to be very shy. I'm grateful to say I've grown which has healed my relationship in many ways. Still growing but overall I’m overjoyed at who I've become. Since elementary school, I've always enjoyed praying and reading the bible. I loved the church. I went to an after school program at my church and our instructor actually bought me my first bible and taught me all about praying and why it was important.
In Baltimore, there is literally a church on every corner, I remember waking up early on Sunday’s getting dressed to go to church without my mom. I learned a lot at my after school program mostly about praying and how to connect with God himself. I run a Lash business. Saijecobeau.I've always loved wearing lashes as early as 16. Always a super girly girl and knew one day I wanted to have my own business. I slept on this idea for a while because I wasn’t "popular" and thought no one would support me or my business, It wasn't until I became pregnant with my princess. She gave me so much confidence and drive. I wanted to be the mom who didn't care about what others thought of me.
If I would teach my baby girl anything it'd be to believe in yourself even when no one else is clapping for you. My fiance also knows how self-conscious I can be sometimes. I sat on the lashes for maybe two full months before launching the business (telling myself I needed x,&y) basically procrastinating. He said I'll never feel fully ready, it’s something you just have to start and perfect as you go. I listened and launched my business in July. The month we were supposed to have our baby girl. I felt like I birthed my business in July and that meant the world to me. I struggled with a name for my business, I had a "friend" steal the business name that I thought of years ago.. which was a bummer. Then, one day I thought this business is my baby. Saije co Beau was the name I came up with. I also wanted to bring some light to my baby’s name, I didn't want people to hear our daughters name and attach "sadness" to it. Her spirit was far from "sad". Losing our first daughter during a pandemic and losing my job has been a hassle. But God. Like period. If you constantly pray to him and when I say pray, you can’t just have a relationship with God where you’re always asking for things you must show your gratitude and give him all the praise.
I hope my story can reflect how God has never given up on me. Pray and do your work. You also have to do your part. Self-love is the best love. Always remember God makes no mistakes, especially when he created you. Something I live by is taking a look at the trees outside if you really observe them they all don’t look the same. Some are taller with fewer branches, some have spots on them, some are thicker, some have more roots they are all different. God made trees and he also made us. Love all your differences, and embrace them that’s the real beauty. Also if you feel less than, you have the ability to literally change that. Take care of your health! This will help with your self-love.
Move around, dance, play in makeup, dress up, feel your emotions, and always be the real you. Remember people only love you as much as you love yourself. When I’m down emotionally, I always pray first. I also try deep breathing which helps with my anxiety. Lately, when I realize tension in my body I go for a nature walk and try to do anything that requires moving my body. Being stagnant just doesn’t help me. I've overcome having low self-esteem about my complexion, losing my daughter, losing my job, and being homeless. Being called ugly and more. I know I'VE OVERCAME this because my self-love is at 100!
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